Strokes

I am plagued with the unknown
Living and breathing, waiting for reality,
To magically appear, from under my nose,
And set aside a fear, that’s only in my head.


Limited by the stroke of my thoughts
I write these words in paragraphs,
Beginning, middle and end,
Already set deep in my mind.


I'll move to breaking down the scenes,
Those that are crucial, for my preaching insanity,
Going back through to connect the dots,
Only to abandon it, thirty words into my story.


Nothing said, nothing to be said,
This is my new plan,
Thus far, it is not working,
But all is well here, this is another year.


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Wilder Days

Childish in my wilder days,
I had wished for this ghost girl,
Who walked down my school hall,
Haunting my every day since.

The ghost that I knew,
Who never answered my thoughts,
I wondered if she was always wishing,
A way to find her a ghost boy.

Never did I know,
In the many years in between,
It was I who haunted her there,
With my boyish arrogance.

She went away without a whisper,
Leaving me looking inside a portal,
Wondering what it would have been like,
Had I been the ghost boy she desired.

Defeated by this beautiful ghost ,
I ran alone the miles and miles ahead,
Counting those memories never made,
Molding myself into the man today.


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To Be More Than Whats To Be

Today, I am what you see
Tomorrow, I am what I dream.
My stream, My being.
Yesterday to today,
On my way to tomorrow.
I am to be a better form,
To be more than whats to be.

In this enterprise of my own,
The emotions that I learn.
My rules, My destiny.
Superior to one,
Inferior to none
I am to be a better form,
To be more than whats to be.

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Unspoken Tunes

Memories faint struggling to surface,
In all its turns, insane tunes,
Wondering if it will ever be heard,
In a voice I wish to be yours.

Your name is back in the air,
All around me and in my head,
The unspoken tunes from my youth,
Ringing with that certain grace.

A soft silence in my reality,
Hidden feelings of unspoken times,
My hands drumming away words,
Never to be written , Never to be heard.

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Fallen

As I sit here now,
I can smell your fragrance,
In the air behind me.
I search for those perfect words,
And the strength to say them aloud.

I threw down your love once,
It fell hard, as would anything else,
Disfiguring and disappearing,
I walked away on a foggy night,
As the winds changed tones.

I never thought I could leave you,
justified it I try with many a crazy reasons,
Yet on that rainy night when insanity struck,
I rode off into the night, into my darkness,
Deaf to the many voices in my head.

I remember you always teasing:
My eyes spoke the truth,
On those little times they ever spoke.
I can feel your innocent touch,
As I sit here falling deeper into my ignorance.

The words I then spoke aloud:

Walk away from me before I turn,
Save our love and all that you trust,
Let it remain as pure as it be,
Your love that I once misplaced,
Don’t push it down for another fall.

Forgive me if you must,
For I deserve a repute not such,
Your love that breeze so strong,
Has a place forever in my life,
Don’t push it down for another fall.

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Silent Melody

On a rainy night, with silent melody,
I, shatter like glass,
Into a million glitters,
Spreading sparks into the dim sky.

Rain beat them down,
Taking me closer into the ground.

At this hinge of my unity,
I seek separation;
Of the mind,
From the bonds of my body.
Of the silence,
From the depth of my dreams.

Rising like a cloud, with silent melody,
I, to the sands above the sky,
Closer to that midnight sun,
Away from good and evil.

Rise to my place hidden,
Beyond the holds of sanity.

At this hinge of my insanity,
I seek union;
Of the thought,
To the signs of my soul.
Of the faith,
To the depth of my knowledge.

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A Picture Within

Holding on to that treasure,
As your eyes hit upon mine,
The beauty this picture holds,
I wish so to behold.

Your words that are held back,
Those that i wish to sound,
Breaking free from within
Spreading love into my name

That fury your eyes seek,
Cutting deep into my mind,
To witness such insanity,
In a picture unreal to hold.

If those thoughts so seek,
Spread your lips into a smile,
Breaking free from within
Spreading love into my name.

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